marshmellowburger

back frm Phuket

2009-02-18T16:09:00.000-08:00

RElive the moments ..

I had my tattoo done aft 3 years. since not enough.. i want more tattoo...ss..

Hurts is all i feel deep inside..
all i wish for is to CRY OUT loud.

Thnx for making the trip so that i could see u, i know My dear "ham baobao" is tired ..

I wished for the best for u, to be happy..
Always rem, i was not there for u when we are tog.. but now its diff

u know u will always be mine

2009-01-05T03:19:00.000-08:00

Lyrics | David Cook lyrics - Always Be My Baby lyrics

goodbye 2008, welcome 2009

2009-01-01T20:23:00.000-08:00

well ,i wanna go get my tattoo done in phuket. would u pls company me there?
u got me thinking of u every moment of my life.
its very torturing.

i hope u will juz grant me one wish to company me get the inking done.
its been a long time since i have tattoo.
forgot wat is called pain.
ultimately the most painful part is the pain in the hrt which couldnt be healed.

i went to sunrise alone ydae.i saw ur unit , was juz like how it used to be.
but the residents inside hav changed.
juz like ur hrt..

well, i reali will die to liver failure soon.
i m finishing my 3rd btl of hard liquor in the shortest time ever ...
now gg to hunt down ppl to get another btl of chivas back for me.
Well, New year Eve ...
i took NR bus hm, aft slacking around.
Even the route from the NR bus stop to my house seems different.

i guess in life, the only thing tat is constant is CHANGE!!
i yearn for u day and nite.
if there is only one thing i could do b4 i die, i will wan ur love not to ever die.

In 2009 all i see and feel is the emptiness and the darkness , feels like living in a cave!!

how long

2008-12-23T06:54:00.000-08:00

how long it takes for me not to cry ani more,??
Not now, cuz i still drink till i put on weight, till i dun care how i look.
i cried , so hard so bad. i tried to break away, its so hard it seems harder than lifing a 100 kg weight of bar bell...
i m all so tired so tat i could slp well, wouldnt juz wake up in the middle of the nite crying or thinking y i m alone.
" nobody said it was easy"
its such a shame for us to part like this !!

hurts me more than anithing else, repeating the scene tat very nite. " the last time i saw u"
i will always keep in mind, so tat i will b strong.
take care, dun ever turn back!!

cuz i m moving on ..........
least trying......
well, if u wan i could change the account under ur email if u want!
this blod is urs i cant be selfish!!
merry xmas, and i know u are happy.
i wished , dreamt that we could spend every festive tog,

ONli i post

2008-12-15T21:19:00.000-08:00

But u dun post. Updating u bt my life? I m so sick of waking up everyday at 12plus in the afternoon.
day in and out, i dreamt of u, twice two days. What the hell.
got nth beta to do? i hav been slping till my body aches.
Life is so much surprises if only u let her in...
If letting a person into ur life is so easy then i wouldnt be where i m ..

i m almost done with all my dvds. Maybe in another 2 days.
i have always been busy dvds n nv finish watching it. now i did.
She has left me probably when she found someone to rely on,
she has left , so i muz move it on, y u love some one who has found love in another?
I have to go.........................................................
i m tired, x'mas, new year day,
enouf of dreams cuz they never come true.....

Try to accept and maybe this is beta....
well, these 5 days of holidays seems so nice yet long, I KNOW U ARE LIKE A FORBIDDEN fruit now. ..

I wondered if every scene reminds u of us? cuz it does for my case

trying very hard to start all over agn

2008-12-11T03:27:00.000-08:00

Was a tough time trying to get thr my days n nights w/out duckie.
My Bdae was a terrible time, slowly i knew i had to pick myself up.
Learning is nv easy. BUt i have to try...
Starting read book to past time, found the pleasure of reading.
killed 3 dvds within 1 afternoon.
hand is casted, cant gym, cant attend trg. Was very torturous.
Drinking and tearing became part of me.

i recalled the times wher i had duckie to help me out with everything when i was on cast last year for i took out my metal plate, nw i m left alone, so different to get get things done. cant shower, cant even put spread my bread with peanut butter.
day in day out, life seems very dull w.out u, nothing i would look forward to.
the look of u, i wished to retain more, but its seems to fade away.

i have nv Stop thinking of u, i looked at the camera, i think of u, the times we had at st james, i wish time would freezed back then . .. aft i send u to her place, i went mad. u duno.'
]i cry cried cry cried so bad, wishing tat u were back.
i was very like super big baby in front of my collegues , team mates ...
i have lost the most impt thing in my life, i could have least expected,
i m sorry for the hurt i put u thr, i know u could nv ever, wanna this rs back..

This lifetime, u and i , may have been the best couple yet, we could have lasted,
i Ruin the fate we both had....
my heart is crushed big time,
i know i goto pull thr, life still goes on..
my door will always open for u,
rem , couple who reali loves, dun bear grudges.. its nv easy to be in a rs, especially one which lasted 3 years , day n nite unseperatable. ..

i m learning to stand on my 2 feets. by gifing u ur space, i believe i m doing u good.
BUT I REALI HATE ppl who are so irritating tat have to be fetch to the airport, so fake, u , maybe fancy ppl wich has clas 3 or owns a car, i have none/
i ADMIT DEFEAT!! i m a loser like wat ur gf said

will you pls look back at me?

2008-11-26T17:24:00.001-08:00

My boss reprimanded me for the 3rd time in the week.
He said why i look so dazed half the time. Did i juz came back from a holiday or wat?he asked.
He questioned if i had ani prblems at hm, i duno wat to answer him.
i merely juz smile.

** well, i cried pratically everynite to slp.**
i slpt for 5hours plus last nite, but woke up thrice to check my fone.
I wondered wat she is doing, if she does misses me.
til now, no msg.

Wonderin if i should say tat " u see ur collegeaus like every day,
now tat u r on leave , u still mit them up almost everyday."
isnt tat quite boring.
Yes, i think i want u give me some time to tell u that i reali reali want this.
I know u love me, but that is not enouf. i drilled it in my head.

U juz sms me as i was typing this entry.
I reali cant slp everynite. I honestly need some pills to help me out.

I duno if u missed me?cuz i miss u at work.
Miss all the morn call i gaf u so tat u can wake up for work.

Actually i din wanna intrude into ur time with who ever u want.
But i reali wanna hav a proper dinner with u n spend sometime tog, like how we did ydae shopping at taka.

sigh** ur leave will soon be over. And i guess u have also block me on msn , cuz i dun see u online.
these 3 year was a breeze in the rs. I know i broke everything single handedly ..
i m sorry. I m willing to do watever it takes to have the chance to treat u beta than b4.
words are juz words.
my action will tell u..

I truly hope u can company me to genting on my bdae.
Reali Do.
leaving on friday 5 dec 11pm if not mistaken.

I hope u still gif me and us a fair chance.

ydae was i was running at the track at kallang. i tot we could settle down,
get married and be tog forever.
i m oreadi 25. If i propose will u agree? or do u take it as i m kidding?

well, will u believe?
or m i rushing u?

three quarter of a year later

2008-11-12T01:04:00.000-08:00

Today marks the day of repent!!
Haha..
Noo.. i wanna u to know its not for the moment,
i plan , or rather i wanted to plan for ur birthday,
but u already have her.

I juz know that i wanna get the whole biggest DORA, to put beside me,
so that i can put on my bed, the side that u always been slping,
I woke up last nite, reaching out for ur hand,
only to realise that its empty spaces i m reaching out for.

I Wished I wished, YOU will come back to me,i dun want anithing animore.
I can give up anithing,
PLS ... grant me my very wish.
My only happiness i choose to ruin in my own hands.

I reali wished tat ther were sth i could do,
I knew ur frens hated me,
its alrite.
we could go back to the times wher u can have ur own frens there.

BUt Smile is good to u rite?
i bet there is sth u feel for , thats y u chose to be with ...

a day to rejoy

2008-04-08T22:37:00.000-07:00

Dora, I am very happy, finally u passed ur driving test.
although the route to success taste bitter and sweet, but i know this is something that will follow u for life, i mean its not juz for me, but more like for yourself.

Cherish the achievement and treasure it.
I lost mine in the short span..

I honestly wanna thank you for doing my laudry for me every time i go over your place.
U hand wash it for me, which makes it all the most so sweet for me...
I appreciate... i had to slp earli cuz i wk earli rem? ANd end late.

Thanks for cooking dinner today.
I try to be back earli ...

LOVE U loadsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ...

we will stage another path of life tog n forgo the unhappy past !!

my darkest day of 31 mth

2008-02-02T09:31:00.000-08:00

My eyes r swollen, i cried till my tears are dried.
I tried n i tried. But there is juz sth deep inside that i couldnt find.
its may not be the love, But might be the guilt..
Will it last forever or by ending it, make the feeling subside.
I couldnt tell ..
What is wrong, wat is Right.
What is love??

Appreciate all the good things that befall.
We have to be fair..
Violence , Bad temper, unReasonable ...
a shitty partner like me posses it all...
i REALI REALI dun deserve ur love, i should have even .......
STEP outta ur life long long time back

U were always by my side wherever i need u...
WHERE M I , when u needed me?i was never THERE...
i SUCKS .........
I regret ... i m guilty ....

I M A SHIT ASS
ASS HOLE .. like u always calls me.......

I once had a LOVING DORA......
Gone Gone .. were those days...
The bed wll nv be made from today onwards ..
the room will start to get more messy by the days...
MY life Will STart To suck from now!!

i may take much longer to love...
NV dare to let ani other person down...

Happy 23rd Birthday...

2007-11-22T18:03:00.000-08:00

My dearest Tweety,
Tml will be ur 23rd birthday, i seriously hope tat u will be happy for the arrangements we have made for u,and the pressies too ...
Well, its very sad to part especially its 1 days aft ur bdae.But dun worry i will be back soon. Things will be juz like how it used to be ok?
Dun Dirty my bed and my room. Clean and Clear it up if u have time ok?

I am looking forward to spending my bdae with u..
Hugs..
Maybe we can chat online while i m away. Its not gg to be easy for me for that these 2 half years tat we have spent, we had seldom part for a long time (1 week?)
isnt tat considered short?but plainly we aint used to it.

Even though as much as ur temper were not very good, but i still love you.
The way u pout ur lips, n the way u wine n wine.
Hmm, And ur cabbage face!! wahhehehe

U know tat its not easy to maintain a relationship but we had it so far, things dun come to this stage very smoothly..
hence we muz treasrue watever we have.
ok?
I will try to see wats nice n suits u, will get for u ok?
and dun put in too much $$ n effort for my birthday ok, if i cant make it back then it will be bad.
Aniwae, my cfm flight will be on 5dec, n i hope seriously hope tat i m able to return by then.**cross our fingers,hope MR NG wun wan me to go **SHANXI**

The allowance will be issued by siew hoon,not sure when though,but maybe next mth.
this mth my pay i will sms to siew hoon to pass to u lor.
U know that i am very wooried u dun eat when i am not around,
so u muz make sure tat take ur daily meals ok?
sobsob..
Dun be sad, i will be back !!
Love you much much ok??
be good, stay hm see you mama..

Happy birthday, u are another year older.
means that u have to be wiser ok?

** THANKS so much for the army bag, though u bought for urself but i know u bought it for the intention to lend me. and that u haven used it, makes me feel bad to use first lor ** waha.. flies to u from Mid Link

Time for a change

2007-10-05T10:35:00.000-07:00

Finally i decided to have some action taken to my job.
New job come along in nov!!! gonna be working with my Birdy..
Well, i would say there's definately good n bad. but i hope we can both mature into another level up above.
we had made it very well thr this relationship tat we had. ...
Keep it up..

Been almost two days since i have last slpt with my baby.
kinda miss u..
its juz so different w/out u by my side..

Anyway, this mth end i m leaving Hp .. for good la.
I am very proud to say that i received the best thing among all thanks for the chance birdy, and marcus..
heehee
i will make it somewher there. Always dun be afraid to fall, cuz u will get up to become a stronger person.

Anyhow i feel like having buffet.feeling damn good.
had the feeling my arm is stronger now aft taking out the metal plate for almost a mth.
hmm, i m gg db training tom, and i am going to my sis chalet,
so many things to do in so little time, well , i need to collect her cake for her as well and i have yet collect my So called "biz suit" arhghg!!
frm Zara!!!
cost me a big bomb $$$$$$ 333 aft 30 bucks of discount. Could have gotto more of the voucher though.

nevertheless, i have more to spend on this mth,..sharks.
jeannie birthday ... on the 20th and then i have yet got a nice belt, and black shoes.
lucky for god sake i got 2 blazar
one may need to alter the sleeves. but looks kinda hard..

shirt i have plenty..

oh .. well thats bt all..
gonna have my exams in a mth's time..
DB race early nov.
Exams mid nov and start of my work too.
And My baby's birthday in Nov Too...
i m going to be pronouce bankrupt soon.wahah
no la .. gonna convert my leave to cash hence wouldnt be much of a prbl.

I love u baby!!
good nite i am gg to rest aft spendning a day at hm ... ..

Bali Craze and Awful Pain

2007-09-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

Came back with much reluctance in the hrt.
Bali was such a pleasant place minus the ppl trying to con our Money (or rather ahlong's)
wahha.. cant imagine he got conned twice and he actually went petrol kiosk twice agn.
Sigh** but glad for him, he learnt how to ride a bike..

Well, i am downloading and saving his pictures in my harddisk,taking years.
Gosh..
I am now so free cuz i have been studying for 4 days str. Not the whole day but at least 3 hours per day.
I believe in slowly absorbing and understanding.W/out the help of my frens.

Oh well, i took out sth which has been a part of me for a least 2-3 years.
Now its out. Its been a memory for me. Have sovenior of it though.Heehee.

Now its september alredy.Time flies.
Well, im recovering from my stitches.
Will be on one more week of Hospitalisation leave.
Has been on 1 week of leave already though.

Raffles place has become my second place of home.
My sister was there, my gf was there.no choice.
But I bet next week i will try to stay home,hopefully my bro will nt be home.
Cuz its sch holidays now.

Well, Today went for starhub interview as a associate engineer.
Lets juz keep my fingers cross pray that they will call me bk for a second round of interview
Sobsob..
Lost of my LV wallet has been a diasater for me thr this whole year.
never though tat i wil lose my wallet. Really never.
The fact tat i got my wallet back from mag for safe keeping is to prevent myself from losing it.At the end of the day, i lost it, duno how too.
Amazing rite?

well, i cant possibly carry this damn Gucci wallet with such little card holder.
Dying for a new wallet.
LV epi leather(mocha) wru ??
The bugger who took it is a Fucking ass hole. I kept it so well, it doesnt even look like a 2.5 year old wallet

lookin back ... ...

2007-08-24T12:12:00.000-07:00

i thought of you ... ... how i met you, how we broke apart, how we try to savaged our love.

it takes more than emotions and feelings i guess to make things work out.
humans are selfish; we might not want what we fought so hard for when we needed "space".

its only human i guess. and only the ones who gives so wholeheartedly will never, try their very best to always remember the very reason why they pursue this "love" of theirs.

i've been pushed to my limit (should there ever be one) and i gather its just me who's too "nice" ( all you bastards out there who have been takin' advantage of me should get what i mean ).

*deb, thanks for the time spend at the reservoir. the whole night was so dear to me. words that came from one who truly loves are just so beautiful; given that you're protecting me all along the way. misses u so fuckin' bad.*

i dont wanna spend my life being frustrated over little details; it aint worth the constant struggle inside of me.

'behold the smile that i carry with me, for its that special meassage for that someone so precious to unveil'

cant sleep - 3.45am

Double O sucks

2007-08-19T21:17:00.000-07:00

I declared losing my wallet ydae.
Had hangover and realised that i lost my wallet.
Tried to hard to avoid losing it.
mag was safe-keeping for me, then next min when she handed it back to me which we were leaving Dbl O ,
there goes my wallet.
i duno if its with nicole's bf or wat?
but it juz went missing like that
it was not in the cab and i m terribly sore losing my wallet not kidding.
Luckily there aint money inside there. i took out my $300 IC too.

Sigh!!
all credit card inside though.
Cant affort to lose anithing animore.
No more drinking.
Fuck tat.

came back frm bali.
pictures were sastifactory.
kinda waiting for ahlong side of the pictures though.
Duno when will we receive it.

Today i am on MC,lazy to go work,
aft having very bad hangover ydae.
went for a jab.
My baby is damn Nice ,
she took great care of me.
like i am a prince.
thanks so much.

I shall be good, go ah ma hse to company her.
And at the same time study for my test tom.

having class later.
Cook for ah ma.

heehee.

I love you baby.
thanks for all the care and concern u showered me.
i am sorry for the violence move.

Btw, i love bali BIKING..
haha..

Too MANY stuff in too little time

2007-08-01T01:28:00.000-07:00

one week to go before bali !!
Currency not yet exchged.
Then next i gotto get the pointer n torch frm LJ and Dawei,
Duno how m i gg to juggle.

sat :
HAving DB training ( which apparently duno if i wanna go)then need to Collect my IC,
and having class at SIM 2.30 onwards,
Needa get a haircut.

Fri nite : meifeng bdae celebration and deb is gg as well. she is leaving soon.
ST JAMES later part in the nite.
Day time: bet i gotto make a trip to CONCOURSE to view the stuff (getting a wetsuit and mask*ah long mention its 30 bucks.)
Its kinda more worth it to buy than to rent.

wahha

Gosh..

Sunday DB training for SIM. GOtto Go get my jacket exchg for the size ...
next ...
i gotto pack my bag for the trip

Monday luckily on night shift!!
phew.

Tues LATE noon SET OFF

Dunno wat is called MISSED out on classes gg to have a impact....
Duhzzzz
wish me luck and hope that i will be real safe for this trip..

Crazy but its true,
we gotto have 3 currency.
SG for sure, Rupriah ( indo currency ) as well as US......
ahrhg!!

will update agn if i have the time.

Exams in nov.. everything is juz racing against time

2007-07-22T23:06:00.000-07:00

monday monday... ... its the start of my 5 days count down towards saturday ... ...

*gesh* work aint that bad after getting the hang of it... working towards my plan for a degree next year :) and also hopefully working in credit suisse (dream job, dream company.)

cheeks you got me worried when you were vomitting non-stop. i tried to care for you but i failed... end of the day, it was the doc's mighty jab that cured you.

it aint funny carrying a plastic bag in the train filled with voimit. but hey, its a "weapon" that day... no one dare to come close. heee

i'll take care of you if i have to ny dearest ... ... i said i would.

Match Point

2007-07-12T13:39:00.000-07:00

Finished watching one outta 20s over movies in my Hard Disc.
WEll,I muz admit tat the movie, match point was great!!
a GUY and two women.
Beautiful, another faithful.
The ending was not very dragging. Guess they were trying to cut it short.
But well,but thats the way it should be.
Concentrate on wat the movie is supposed to..
4 stars outta 5 for this show..

Today last day of the week.
Cant wait to watch transformer tml.
Hmm, hopefully my baby drives .. along with me..
heehee

Thanks for making the effort to send me the mail everyday.
i bet u missed me very much..
Not that i m thickskin...

ITs Such a wonderful show, its still floating in my mind.

Oh well, i should be getting a braclet for myself,lost the one which i used to have.
Damn Sad.All becuz of Dragon boat,or should i say my own carelessness.

Banana republic is opening tom. Most prbl grand opening.
its at Paragon.
Maybe taking a quick PEEP..
No buying ......

I m broke.Credit Card bill have yet to be settled.
Monthly payment for sch fees.
Whats more,Bali in August.

hmm, Hopefully i can get a job at RinGo engineering.
Haha. Muz be wondering where tat place is?
Ask the owner of the blog and she will tell u more bt it..

Sat will be a Slacking day for me and dap.If i happen to wake up earli,
most prbl i will go down and have buffet with the dragon boat GUYS..
great time to catch up with them though.

I kinda miss those trainings........
Still wondering if i should get the underwater casing for my camera
arhhg!!
damnit

Next week day shift, and follow then, i might not be bringing lappy to wk on night shift anymore.
Got eyes spying everywhere!!muz be careful@#$%$^%&^

2007-07-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

Cant seems to type the title for this Blog.
Never mind.
Anyway its Transformer + die hard 4.0

Wee,
Cant imagine Sg and MY cathay have merge into 1 website already.
Actually they ought to. Since the MY website has always been very OUTDATEd!!
6RM vs $9 which 1 will you pay??
Sigh** if only i could minus the travelling.
i would defintely take THE RM ..

Friday will be coxing for the Jur port for Jackson. Duno if paid also.
Will be return him back my beloved black paddle which i dun need it either.

Next thing i will be looking forward to is the RACE at sg river 29th july,
Its for the charity .. .Nevertheless winner will get bring back $500 in cash for the team,.
means we might have a FEAST/DRINK session aft that..
Yuppie.
That is provided we win.

hmm.. next, most important thing is BALI TRIP.. 07/08/07-14/08/07
Diving !! Mola, Mantas and loads more..

wahhaha...

Dayang was reali Sucks..
But i got a GOOD torch frm the trip to pays it all..
Maybe my baby wil drive on fri??wahahha
Will she?
we shall see?

I cant wait to be the 1st passenger in her Car!!

well, i am dying to watch transformer and Die hard 4 ..
can somebody pls help me..

i am so outdated.
Racing against time.

1st week of work

2007-06-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

My baby's first week of Work At UOB..
She is wkg with all the Auntiesss..
So secretive her job scope.Until now i stil not sure wat she is doing.
All i know is she is all the time opening ACCT with UOB

Seriously it aint easy money for her to earn though.
but i am glad she has ANDY.. At least somebody to company during lunch time..

Dragon Boat RAce at bedok reservior
As for me, i have 2 more days to race day.
1030 is the ladies IVP with SIM,
and 11am is the set with HP
All Guys, i am the only gal!! pengs.

Well i gotto SAY i will try my best!!
Aniwae i paid like $26 bucks for the jersey.Heard that windbreaker, short is another 10 bucks.Damnit..

Hmm.. maybe dun need to pay..
MAYBE onli!!

MY baby is coming to support me..heehee
muz rest well..

This fri got COX session at SDBA!!
hmm, actually i had a bad week though.

I went to get the PSP at AMK Cash converter.
IT was 1 yr ago, and apparently i think we were too tired to check,
purchased the set aft asking alot of question bt how to use the set and all,
only to realise tat its past the warranty already.not worth the $$ 220

next,
I went for the diving advance
liase wit the guy we wanted PADI licence,
having so tired aft wk and all, onli to realise its under SSI

Ydae training, i din get to row much.
Though i am tired, i went all the way down,
sad to say, i gotto TRAVEL all the way back aft a day of fruitless training.
sigh!!
wat is this freak world coming to ??

Worst shit of all,
was it last sat /sun,
Doris, Dap mummy said, 124 days in a yr, she came back hm to zzz.
so i suggested buying the no. 0124
and it came out 4d
Arghhg
i wanna buy but LAAZZZy lor
pengs..
STARTERS leh.at least got alittle bit of extra income lor!!
arhghg

may 16 2007

2007-06-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

i chanced upon *may 16 2007* entry by you cheeks... ...

i'm glad u finally got what u wanted... its a long wait for you. cheers!

in the process of realising and getting one's goals, sometimes one loses itself, his loved ones. is it worth it? all men are bitches arent we?

i took a nap on my bed yesterday ... ... its been a long time since i last did that and when i woke up, i feel like i was back to year 2005. stolen moments are what i am left with... ...

Would you remember that i was there for you when u are busy pursuing your dreams, your goals, your needs? would u remember i'm always waiting behind u just to spend a single moment with you? ... ... or will u wait till i become your past and choose to relive these memories and then remember.

they told me that you are the "unsuitable" but i chose to see you as the "unintended". believe in this, i do.

Rehad

2007-06-20T07:43:00.000-07:00

My baby is going to the "Overeating REHAD"
She ate too much. Far frm those who doesnt eat!!
My god... the simpson pictures is so Freaking nice..
We illegally walk into the sealed corner and took the pictures..
Loaded up in the friendster..
now i m feeling damn zzzzly ..
shall make my way to lala land..

shall update agn!!

Yuppie so happy i got my citibank credit card.
but things kinda F up to activate even though i received the card already!!
muz wait and wait for their constant mail.
WOndering wat is (bernard) gonna gif me for the voucher..
eeheheh..
wkg tml n fri.. OT ..arhhg!!

$$$$$$$$

Makes me Wonder..

2007-06-12T13:19:00.003-07:00

you make me wonder!!
Hmm, Tuning to ur all time fav now.. Make me wonder by maroon 5,
I simply wondered why is ur blog address so complicated.
I mean kinda hard to spell it,
i click on thrice on even more..
Since last night i wanna to check wat u had posted.
Only upon logging in, i laughed at ur post and read it for the very 1st time..

Ya !! i owned the "giant", how could u not know?
My gf is "enormous" cuz she eats alot.esp when i aint supervising her.
When i am in my dream land,she would pick up the tab herself from watever that is in the Drawer + kitchen + fridge!!
maybe sometimes EVEN IN THE DUSTBIN too!!
wahah.. juz kidding!!
she and her "mercedes Benz" she will nv MAKE IT OUT of "Giant"

ya wats more,she Ate So much at Ikea,
couldnt imagine, how she wanna almost the whole menu...
I guess ikea was fruitful,at least i bought a $19 rectangle bag, to store all my jeans.
Shall upload it here when i have the chance to.

Well, its so Funny to think bt it..

**Runaway ... By ludacris is so addictive!! **

Oh i had training at bedok reservior!! sneak/crawl into TP to shower.
Had a long walk.. before i trespass into Tp , and aft i got into TP, i walked all the way to the Sports complex to shower.
To realise the sun was sorching HOT!!
i had to take a cab to Ikea where the Birdy is waiting.
Training was great,challeging with the N team gals..
They were good, every single stroke with power.
Wani and Jasmine were in the team but well, I have to admit i hate the look in wani face!!
well, we used to be the same team,by the same coach,
hate his bf , not wani though!!

Night shift for another 2 more days.
Tml my another collegue is coming back frm Reservist,at least would be beta off..

looking forward to fri,
CUT hair and to SIM for registration of my course!!

hmm ...
This weekend training agn, every week will be a more tedious week.
2 more weekend to RACE day!!

Cant wait for BalI To come!!

We are going Dayang for our advanced,1st week of JULY..
we shall do well , and have a enjoyable time at BAli ok??
love u , love u ...

Tweety had 3 packs of maggie,
MY CUP noodles and Sultana biscuit which i bought for my sister.
Apparently that greedy BIRDY said she doesnt take this sort of biscuit,
that was why i bought it,
BUT there she is , i left on the dining table, and next thing i knew, i woke up in the morn,
realised that she had it,
WOrst of all, i even ask my bro , who open up the biscuit,??
n we tot it was my "FATHER" !!
Pengsss!!

Yuppie.. Congrat to me!!
i got my citibank card!! juz waiting for it to deliver,
was so kuku ,

Makes me Wonder..

2007-06-12T13:19:00.001-07:00

so god damn full

2007-06-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

with love and courtesy of my ever-so-handsome, skinny but muscular, roasted-pigskin-alike baby, i went for DIM DUM BUFFET!!

heee , ate so much. Nearly died. although i am having a sore throat now but it was worth it.

walked around the whole raffles place area and realised that theres nothing!!! ha.
useless wastage of land!!! at least there's plentiful of my favourite coffee place (SPIN) around and i couldnt resist and got my dog bones. hmmmmm temptations.

IKEA on sat after Cheeks's training at bedok! ermmmmm, what can i say but I HAD A FANTASTIC LUNCH CUM TEA TIME AT IKEA!! Salmon, meatballs, chicken wings.... haha ... almost all free. hush hush.

got a huge container to put our bags and we carried it all the way back home ... coz ikea charges for their bags now ... ... cheeks, next time we bring trash bags k?

GIANT was huge too!! but we didnt walk around much with the crowd giving us a headache and my "mercedes" not moving and constantly knocking into ppl. hmmm, cheeks says i'm not good at pushing my "mercedes" and she took over and the result ?? - SHE PUSHED HER WAY THROUGH!! i mean knocking into ppl without looking back...!! CHEEKS guessed you owned GIANT hor, i didnt know. heee.

you slept real well and i ended up eating alot too.... heee i love you dear and the way you hugged me so close in the morning.

cheeks i know you have been spending alot lately, i'm trying to help out. dont worry, i will get a good job that pays well. i'll remember how u take care of me now , hugs and kisses for you only.

Gd day for the week

2007-06-06T13:52:00.000-07:00

Ye hew!!
i juz had mac for my wee hour breakfast.
kinda miss clubbing, yet i dun..
haha.. CONFUSED rite?
Cuz i needa go for trainings and i seriously concerned bt my hardwork going to waste.
Hence No DRINKING n Clubbing for me..
But i miss the banging of the loud music n the putting down all u gotto worry bt everyday.

Sigh** life is juz so sucky...
how i wished i could take everything away..
Enjoy life,having food provided for.
I dun need any LV,gucci, or prada to get on with my life!!
Maybe a tag heuger watch will do?
neh..

WEll, i m beginning to wonder wat is my woman at home doing?
she has been slping early these two nights.
i wonder if she is reali slping or WENT out clubbing.
Cuz i dun believe she does slps so earli at her own hse.

Tml i will be very free, i will be working all alone night shift !!
OT lor. wat else.
i am currently waiting for my appeal of any module exemption from SIM
hopefully it gets thr.!!

what am i too u?

2007-06-02T09:46:00.000-07:00

i only wanted the best, the best for you.

i guessed you put certain stuff in priority and definately, i am not in there.
its okay, its just you cheeks.

but i hope one day you will look back and remember that once, once i was there for you. trying to be there when you're ill and all. maybe someday, you will understand how i feel right now.

And for me, i'll hope for that one day, when i'm ill, for that special someone to bring medicine to my bedside. it could be you , it could be no one, it could be someone ... ... i dunno

Start of the fresh Month..

2007-05-31T13:05:00.000-07:00

beginning of a new mth..
i hate myself most of the times.
I duno why.
Being self centered.not caring enouf for my bird.
But seriously at times, she is abit demanding too.
i am sorri i did promised u tat..
But right now i am gg to start sch, i need to have $$ on hand.
i cant be spending like how i used to.
Cuz i muz plan for the future.

Preciously why i din wana to sub u first its not that i will never wanna sub u.
juz tat i wanna myself and u to be more stable.
Not be holding so many cards each owning them liek 1k, or more ,
DECLARING bankrupt and all.
I am afraid that cuz now i m under the co owner of the hse. if i spurge loads without thinking of the consqences and at the end of the day, my bro n sis will not have a place to stay.everything muz think of wat will happen if ani thing goes wrong.
or if u were to lost ur card sub consciencely and stuff.

Well i tell u , i will sub u 1 .. cant u juz be a little more patient?
pls .. stop stressing me..
it make me feel reali being forced to.
Think bt it, why i din sub my sister?she has all along been by my side.
Being my cash on line?
REm?
I muz repay who ever who has been treating me well..
the whole world dun juz revolve ard u,
this is the sentence u put across.

We have come so far.
we ought to understand each other best.

Well , like chuck that aside.
Firstly i am very happy and satisfied with the RAM i have got.
Nnever regret though initally i mit up with some probls.
next i am very glad i got THIS WD portable HD,
120GB for 130,
not so bad though .. 3 years warranty.
looking forward to suntanning tml.
Hope we dun qurrel no more..

So hungry.my throat hurts... !!
deb is coming back, i muz get her birthday pressie!!

i swore!!

Double happiness

2007-05-28T07:06:00.001-07:00

congrats to Myself and my Birdy!!
she got her job at CITIBank which pays her very well,
but she is not very keen as to the job scope they offers.
somehow i understand her point ,but aniwae, i still wished her the best and know that she might get a beta job out there like dream works.

And To myself, cuz i got MY ENTRY into UNISIM.
course fee is ard $4500 for the semster with onli 3 modules!!
damnit
money sucking sch!!
exemption of module also need money.$262.50
Registering also need money $52.50 including GST.
Damnit.
still have like entrance fee?wondering if this is a "CLUB"
is there ani free drinks then?ahahha

Another two more days of work and i will hav a long weekend off
yuppie.
Planning for wakeboard this friday..
and then .. this sat having two session of dragonboat training!!
Will kill me !!
Buying endurox at GNC probably tml!!

2007-05-22T09:38:00.001-07:00

The girl gang at below and above is the boy gang

look at geogre with his usual face!!

This is taken a labrador park.
Tweety bird is very excited .. and she is always eating !!

End of the MONTH

2007-05-22T08:55:00.000-07:00

its the end of the month soon..
Feeling so lucky cuz i will be getting pay soon.
But then agn, the money will soon flow out as well..
Quite excited cuz i duno if i will get into UNI SIM ..
duno if the letter is at my ah ma hse already.
Tml i will be making a trip there, maybe staying over.
Supposed to be the last day of work tml (RS Course at Enous)
its quite further inside compared to my bike workshop.
Hmm, should be miting up with ahlong as well for a coffee.

Well, so tight... Hopefully i am able to SQUEEZE some money out from that Bastard Teh.
HAhaha.... if i get into the COURSE!!
**keeping my fingers crossed**

Setting aside budget for :

school at least 2k,
600 for diving at Bali
400 for Advanced course.
misc for trip to bali 400

Pengs..
so much...
Gotto Save save Save!!
Muz eat bread everyday liao.

Congrat to my baby,she is going to interview at citibank tml.
Wondering wat she is gg to wear..
bikini and her army shoes?

Well, today i was late for my course,so damn FAR!!
Tml i planning to take the train instead. i think its faster though.

And oh... Tweety bird tat KAPO gal,
she went to look up at PC blog,
and damnit she is in SIM too.
Yucks. hope i dun see her there.
Baby pls trust me that i reali dun like her.
u meant me to me than her ok?
love you!!
**prolaiming my love here, So mushy**

Hmm,this weekend having 2 DB training!! sianz!!
when i went to gym yesterday, i saw this guy with his PI,
he was training like as if he was going to fight a war tom.
So funny.skinny n tall like a bangleshish look.

Oh,been a long time since we last went to mustafa.
Deb is going to be back, i think my baby will be real busy..

Actually today i end my course at 4 lor, have got nothing to do.
Went to the post office n took a spin.
saw the coffee bean tot of my birdy!!

well ... tml going to walk thr that long walk frm the MRT agn!!
the ppl there are so family
they eat around the dining table and the rice cooker and the food ..
so Homely!!
whaha..
the place even have to take out the shoes to go up to the office and training room.

Good luck baby for your interview!!!
hope u will do very well and get the job,
so next time u can help me out with my citibank card!!

most prob i will get my clear platiumn end of the mth..
yuppie!!

Some recap of the pictures we took last weekend at labrador park!
Plus there was a video but no way its to be posted here.
hahah

Enjoy the pictures

THE ice cream story

2007-05-16T13:06:00.000-07:00

Yes my dear!!
i promise u tat i will company u for the interview as i need the money for sch.
Most importantly, i also want to be by ur side.
Working tog with u making sure u dun get bullied.

Aniwae, i hope u are slping well now.
Do take plently of rest once u finish ur attachment like next week ok?

Finally this weekend will be a REST for me.
Before i start a whole 1 and half mth of hard core training.
dragon boat race end of JUNE !!
SIM And HP wishing to strive for the best for both teams.

End of May will be the result of whether i get to take my cuz in SIM and also ..
MY 13mth bonus i am longing for..

HAHA.. and my citibank credit card, i promise i will sub 1 to u ..
I Will..

Mid May madness

2007-05-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

Last weekend, That Little birdy of mine, wanna go HAJI Lane..
Had great fun trying to find our way.
Anyway, this weekend not hvin training. so i shall find my own program.
My laptop had major overhaul over the weekend also..sianz..
maybe i shall go JB this weekend??

Mother day
- went to have dinner(simple dinner) at ah ma downstairs.
- heehee , $4.8 per plate.stil cost up to 50bucks.
- slaughtering pig HEAD man..
- Tweety bird, my 2 uncle, my sister and ah ma
- my uncles ordered CURRY fish head for themselves and apparently me and my sister both paid 25 , didnt eat much.
- the worse thing of all is that we had the TOFU which is not the normal ones we used to hav.

DAMIT.

Lets not talk bt it..

Before that we went to Chinatown to get quek her mother's day gift.
A perfume( miracles)
Then, my sister also got her PARIS Hilton for 30 Bucks.
I got my JPG too, yeah, finally ...
well, i cant bear to use it. but i wondered if anybody used it before too. looking at the way the boss do biz there, i m abit terrified.

Hmm,i cant wait to get my ass to the central agn. shopping freak ..

lost my black ring from my baby.. Into the drainage in the toliet agn.
I wanna cry .. cuz i lost 300 bux to ICA for my NEW iC and yes,
i m stil harping on it.
then this weekend i lost 400 to my bookie. lost the soccer.
Something strange happened. i actually could have reduced the lost by almost half.
but sigh!!
Dun wanna mention bt it..

This week is a damn long week. 4 nights.
planning for gym session on one of this day.
Then followed by fri/sat gym.
i muz GO FOR GYM,getting fatter by the days

Next week tues n wed i gotto be at Enuos for training. DAMIT. for the RS LOGIX.
i should hav taken tat course last mth, it was at novena where tweety is la.
but too bad. my boss ask me why did i apply when he hasnt even gif me the green light lor.
BANG HEAD..

i m seriously thinking of holidaying ..
short trip to genting or sth..
over the weekend end of the month since its vesak day though.
lets see how ..

i am quite dark but i think i got to my max already.
no more darker..sigh!!
no more peels too..

Baby, i hate you.
HAte the way u eat and leave the dustbin filled of all ur sugarish stuff in the bin for almost 2-3 days.
Worst of all, some chocolate wrapper was not even thrown in the bin, it missed CUE,
was on the floor,
no wonder so many ants all around.
And u finished almost all THE CHEESE biscuit which i bought like juz yesterday
its to be shared among me,my sister, and you,
but u left 4 packets.
How am i not supposed to scold /yell at u..

Augish filled my head.
i even cleaned the floor last night at 4 AM IN THE MORN!!
can u imagine tat?
well, u are now forgiven.
Guilty not?
Mucks.. hope u are happy having time to ur frens.

I'm a hungry duck

2007-05-09T07:55:00.000-07:00

I'm hungry!!! so so hungry. eeeee i'm thinking of picking up my phone and dialing macdonalds!! but i cant. i must save money.

should i cook maggi then? hmmmm or should i cook porriage?

i just had biscuits and milo. not enough.

was late for school lately... past two days. not good. i waited for the bus for like, half an hour? and worst , i couldnt get on it!

i wanna work for the " ice cream story " ; they are hiring and i saw it on the internet. Diploma holders - requirement to scope ice-cream. its at holland village ( cheeks should we go visit this shop one of these days? ) and then i could maybe decide if i wanna work for 2 months for them? ha , ok i know i'm not hired yet.

my mum washed my toilet for me, with bleach. thanks. shes nice , for today. :)

cheeks, you are always busy. i wont nag nor complain but its heart ache to see you work so hard. take good care of yourself; we 'll play tennis tomorrow. or maybe we can swim? or perhaps in my lanuage is "soak"?

i'm tired but jollie!

2007-05-08T18:03:00.000-07:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Your Guardian Angel Lyrics
When I see your smileTears run down my face I can't replaceAnd now that I'm stronger I've figured outHow this world turns cold and breaks through my soulAnd I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the oneI will never let you fallI'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it allEven if saving you sends me to heavenIt's ok. It's ok. It's ok.Seasons are changingAnd waves are crashingAnd stars are falling all for usDays grow longer and nights grow shorterI can show you I'll be the oneI will never let you fallI'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it allEven if saving you sends me to heavenCuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heartPlease don't throw that awayCuz I'm here for youPlease don't walk away, Please tell me you'll stay, stayUse me as you willPull my strings just for a thrillAnd I know I'll be okThough my skies are turning grayI will never let you fallI'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it allEven if saving you sends me to heaven
Lyrics > The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lyrics > The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Your Guardian Angel Lyrics

Lang tengah PIctures

2007-05-06T23:37:00.000-07:00

This is my new hair cut .. Thanks to my dearest tweety bird, she companied me there..
choose a good hair cut for me..
phew.. finally i look beta and got a new look!!
thanx so much my dear

http://dragondiver.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album69

Above is the link to our wonderful pictures taken at Lang tengah..
it's a very expensive trip ....
Replaced my IC for 300, and paid up for my credit card bills excess of 285 RM for the rental of the room.
Lost 1200 RM and 50 Sg at custom..
Burnt a fukg hole in the poCKET!!
i hate m'sia now

but well, take it as a lesson learnt!!

Now lets juz look forward to the next dive in june/ Aug

The Major dive is in AUG... (BALI)
Tix are so Damn Dirty Cheap.
Per pax is 200. we are planning for a week of holiday there..
yet to decide 3/4 days of dive. Then .. Shopping SPREE!!
Yohoo..

Currrently only dap, me and long!!

But Congrats to me quitting Smkg!!

2 week of no cig..
maybe ** 1 or 2 stick while i WK ..
weekend nono..

New hair cut and my picture

Oh HK.. here i come.

2007-05-03T22:32:00.000-07:00

Planning to book the air tickets to HK tom aft my DB trg..
We (ter, irene, me and quek) are going to HK in aug..
heard that it is sale season then..
all the best .. hopefully we can get CX flight.
this is becuz he is a BIG drinker. think he can finsh all the beers on flight.

HHAHHA.. holiday agn..
gonna go ICA later to have my IC replaced.**finally**
then for my hair cut. Since labour day i had already wanna CHOP off that shitty hair of mine.
MY face sucks, doesnt good any better with ani kinda hair..

i realised that my mood swing like see saw.. very hard to predict.
now its beta.probably its weekend, and next 2 weeks i m gg to be on night shift.
more freedom,wun see boss.
well my line is hiring agn, cuz got ppl resign..

Anyhow, tml there is DG trg. so looking forward for it.
but juz pray it doesnt rain.
Hmm, sunday i wanna go sentosa sia.
last sunday went here with ter, and birdy..
cloudy + no sun.. went shopping instead.

Nevertheless this week i lost soccer yet i bought a pair of levi jeans.
last week i bought a pair of jeans for GAS..
now i m gg to hang myself when the Credit card bills comes.

Hmm... life will nv be the same agn if tweety werre to leave me.
i love u baby..
u were such a sweetie. seriously i am moved by wat u did and even though i dun express it, but i felt it deep within me.

Hugs** kisses**

i am counting down the days u will be finishing ur attachement...
thax for doing up this blog to share w me. making a trip juz to get my jeans for me.
Taking me as proity always.
i appreciate ur effort in every sense.

This mth has 5 weeks sian...
i spoke to nicole online.i told her tat i was waitin for sim enrollment,or rather application result,
then she told me tat STUPID pork chop is gg to be there.
I ALMOST FAINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh**

she was like telling tat she got pang sei by M & M..
luckily we din make our way w them to HK
hahahaha

ok, i will end here.. cuz i am wkg now.
pls congrat me , cuz i finally figured out how to post songs on the blog.
nx i m gg learn to do my backgrd color and picture on friendster profile.

** grin ** weekend rocks.
i wanna catch spiderman!!!!!!!

Love my baby love Her every bits

2007-05-03T09:52:00.001-07:00

This song rocks

labour day eve

2007-04-30T06:34:00.000-07:00

Holiday eve at home.
My fringe is covered my forehead,irritating to the max..
stupid neighbour above provokes me even more.
i came back home earli after team building at eastcoast,
got sunburnt. .. scrotching pain on my eye lid.
then when i came back, the stupid bitch above dripping water agn for the no. 10020393940 times,
on my clothes.what the F ...
so inconsiderate..
have told them not to drip water down but they still couldnt get it in her head..
So i had to pour DARK soya sauce up.. wahahah.. feel so good aft that..

Went for the team building today.
was great though ..
won the 2nd prize...
a massager.. looks like the size of the the palm.

planning to go sentosa tom..
then maybe i will go and have my hair cut ..
but its like the aunt is off til wed. the timing doesnt really allows me to go on time to the salon.
sigh!!!!

hopefully we could have the sun tml..
baby is having a bad time with her mum..

i love you

2007-04-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

i love you!

loving you is such an amazing experience!! i would give everything up just to be with you. i would give up my breathe just to be in your arms again.
i'm staying strong for u; staying alive just to be able to see you gorgeous little thing once again.

Saturday Fever

2007-04-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

ywan !! cant seems to get to slp on friday night.
finally i have struggle thr the pain of a mth of NIGHT shift.
those pictures were so beautiful,
thanks baby for posting them up. hahaha. ur effort is definately apprecitated.
HUR huR, i was having headache juz now when i am awake most of the time during the day.
MY kuku bro finally wash the clothes,n he kept complaining there is so much to hang
when there was onli a bit to FULL load.
Sigh** he is like the prince of the hse. Spolit.

Saturday tonite, i m not feeling well juz now.
Not after a nap at 8plus.
Now i juz hope that in the finally couple of min (8min) Spur could squeeze another 2 goals.. .

well left 1 min... score now is 1-2 Spurs and arsenal.
rather unusual for spurs to lose to gunner.
but guess its kelong.

Tml participating in the mizuno run,after which will be training with SIM.
Today the stupid coach called me a monkey today for screwing up the timing.
so pist with his way of describing me can. totally no respect!!

Hmm, caught hills have eyes two ydae,
wasnt that bad afterall. cuz usually the story line will stil be somewat the same for 1st show and second.
This was special and least of all boring though.

HAHHA
Baby i love u, every though u think that i dun.
Sometimes i juz wanna you to know tat appreciate wat u have is very essential too.
we shall go for mid night shopping next fri ok?
hugs..

looking forward to the NEXT PH ..
Gosh, now they are in the extra time...
Gd luck to me for the rest of the game.

Recall on last weekend,
2 btl of martell,
1 teq neat. (quek got drunk on that)
Hmm, shared among andrew,joyce,serene (left earli),jean, geogre, Tweety & me.
st james was beta on sundaysss seriously,lesser ass buming..

KIV...
Pulau AUNG, diving trip at 270/per person.
a total of 5 dives. + 1 night.
we can pay a little more for the advance licence..
wondering if my honey sweet sugar wants to go?

how bt bali??
** scratch head, Scratch Pockets**

next week will be a beta week,
day shift and i completed my project,
juz tat i need do up the ppt slides for the $$$ to come in for the project..
hopefully there is $$ lor..

Needa hair cut soon ... ...
things i got this weekend was fantanstic..
Zara * brown belt* $60
*Kids Polo Top * (white base and blue strips) $30
total damaged : $90

2007-04-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

Joyce and Cheeks
joyce and dippy

the party troopers of the night!!

st james... all bathing in alcohol!

i'm ill; without you

2007-04-17T07:41:00.000-07:00

cheeks i've fallen ill. as usual.

i proclaim now that i have been awake for more than 48 hours and i am still wide awake!
yucks!

had fun the past weekend with my ladies and their partners! i was gone when the time comes for supper to be served! heee... ...

joyce: thanks for holding my hair back when i vomit. heeee
serene: thanks for wiping my tears away. you meant alot to me. a hell lot.
jean: i'm addicted to your "yoo hoo" , the sound you made to anything when you are drunk!
cheeks: thanks for being the "spark" of the night, making every thing so right. ( you do know you speak alot when you are high right?" serene can vouch for it ) you are an alcoholic that night! ah-ha !

Cheeks, you are ever so demanding and always bossing me around even when it comes to food... ... i'm in love with you, with each horrible sides of you. its amazing.

Good and bad times

2007-03-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

My baby is so lUCKY.. **like britney spears..
wahaha.. U know the song, Britney spears , **she so lucky , she's a star.. **

Theme for Sunday @ st james power house, BEACH wear.
Dropped off at h.front station, saw all the beach wear ppl.
Doughnut and i went all the way frm Sentosa to Wlds juz to get chg and kick ass to Power house.
Simply becuz we dun want to be in our beach wear lor.
Was lucky even though we were tired and reluntant to go, **simply cuz she already Jio her frens liaoz.**
i was glad tat my fren from Dragon boat was there too with his bf. Bought us into power house for FREE..
It was practically whynot and happy style of crowd.
but we were at dragonfly 1st as jean n george was there already and then came serene.
a jug of beer for 40 is abit steep where i can get frm power house at $20 a jug for house pour and $25 for v red bull.
My fren (gay) chris was so Kuku, he kene slaughter for a jug of REDBULL, w/out alcohol for $36.
i was the 1 who help him get back his change of $14 bucks.
he paid $50 initally and din got his change back.
kinda kuku.

We went into power house along with the rest for the 1st time, serene din like the place.
they headed off.
That doughnut decided to keep her frens company so i went ahead with them.
The 2nd time we went into power house, at THE DOOR,
we managed to pick up a FONE!!
whaha.. i was thinking she wasnt tie-ing her shoelaces but how come she bend down.
i saw sth which she held on her hand.
i guess so tat she picked up a FLIP fone.
abit happy yet nth great..
Aniwae picking up a fone has always been her cup of tea.
HAHA.. upon entering the toliet cubicle,
it was Ericsson k800i BROWN Casing some more.
I love the camera of this fone.
so it is my for NOW..wahha..
aniwae, after tat she wanna show off to her frens.
so she went back to dragon fly,and guess wat?

she went into the wash room agn at power house..
PICKED up a N91 when she called me.but then, suay suay the gal was onli at the washing area,
came asking frm her back her HP..
she gaf back...
overall i spend almost 100+ for the nite, with a new hp..
quite happy la..

Hmm, redang this fri, so exciting.
i hope and pray that we will be safe n sound.
Watching the sunrise will be our plan
provided we can get our ass of the bed.

pay is gonna be in soon..
i am planning for degree, most prob in SIM,
but i muz be very sure this is wat i want before i jump into it..
cuz its all bt MONEY ..

baby, its biomedical engineering.. i like biomedical.
i hope i can make it..

**Everyday is a good day having the tots of YOU in my mind doughnut **

i'm so proud of you baby

2007-03-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

spent my weekend at seletar reservior! reason: my baby's race is held there!

went down even though i had a bad bad tummy ache. hmmm. bad bad tummy.
i rushed down in time to watch cheeks come in first for the heats. *i'm your star*
heee .. and had a good time watching soccer at a kopitiam. heee ... temptation all around me.
the rojak is nice. the mee hoon kuay is nice. the mouse thingy is nice too. *grin*

sorry baby, its not that i dont want to have the bread you made. its just that i have no appetite. my tummy... ouch.

cheeks woke up late for sunday's race. rushed her way down again.

i'm proud of you cheeks. i saw you won the race. and damn i'm filled with pride, knowing that you did your best.

heee ... cheeks mentioned that she wanted to chill but ended up "chilling" on her bed. gee.

you siad you could go without dinner; but you said you wanted "power nasi lemak".

i hurry down in my colorful sweater to get dinner for you; praying that it wont be sold out.

cheeks i miss you even though i am with you every day...

Busy be for the week

2007-03-08T14:11:00.000-08:00

my ankle is swollen guess its due to pressing on the vein..
so painful,aniwae, its cuz of dragon boat agn..
well,This coming weekend planning gg for db agn..
Hopefully wun be a unpleasant day ..

last week i m so so glad i got my blades.
looking forward to sunday, i will be seeing jeri and the baby and of cuz using my new blades..
whaha.. went all the way to east coast juz to get it and with my paddles .. how stupid..
I am glad my baby hasnt been late to wk and most imptly she found her new love stores there.
like pearly soya , bb tea and much more..

Yes!! i am finally getting my earphones back on monday. Cant wait for my ipod to be filled up with the inner ear phones man.. Duno who spoilt it in the 1st place.. **cough **

having loads program line up for today..
1st i m gg ah ma hse take a nap.next i will proceed to the polyclinc to take a no.
go for a haircut a couple of stops away then i will come back to the clinic to take the referral letter for NUH op to take out my metal plate.
yo hoo .. i m gg to weigh lighter in a couple of mths time.. 2-3 mths to be exact.

then i m gg to pick my baby at novena then ..we will go shop ard..
STICTLY window- shopping no buying.
I plan to go for the IT fair but bet i am unable to make it with my current situation ( leg)
sigh** guess i will gif it a go this yr..

my Canon camera seems to be gifing me prbl. how pist am i man..
arhghg!!
duno why cant directly pluck the USB into the comp ...
servicing it is the onli alternative.

i m 3 weeks away frm REDANG ..
the very nice and beautiful beach, view frm website la..
2 weeks away frm my dragon boat race..
and this week is gg to be over in 3 days time...

OFF days usually flies pass and slogger for work is a usual routine.
i am hoping to pick up things at work soon.
i dun want to be a useless person.
Wasting $$ on drinking is nv a option for me.
i mean like small amt and once in a VERY BLUE moon its fine!!

Today is the 3rd day i am apart frm my baby.
MISS HER VERY much frm the bottom of my hrt..
bet she does too..
well, its life,sugar!!
we juz have to adapt to it and things will turn out beta ..

LOVE You deeply and i always appreciate watever u have done.
Bare that in mind ok?
Muacks**

and its bt time u should wake up for WORK!! !!!

Hugs****

March-ing Thr the mth

2007-03-03T04:49:00.000-08:00

Finally !!! Declaration for tweety bird..
she has finally finished her exams except for 1... which apparently she took mc for.
i wished her all the best..

well, i came back earli today frm Dragon boat trg.. ard 5 in the evening.
Went along to get my skates frm east coast..
$264 gone from my pocket.. huge burnt!!
anihow, today training was terribly annoyed.
i was being put in the other boat along with the rest of the gals and the new guys.
so big size the 2 guys. but they were quite nice ppl though.
1 of them promise to bring me a sponge 4 my butt.
the captain juz told me tat i will be in 3 races. pengs.
the mixed and the 2 corporate or sth ..

My baby is a queen of gambler..
Man U win for tonite.. Plspls..
and aft this game we shant play ani more..
was kinda hot day at sentosa today..
not exactly sunny in town though, juz passing clouds.
and as i rch wlds, it rained while i m minutes away frm hm..
Got my skates,not sure when i will be able to use it though..
Looking forward ...
( my baby also wanna get a skates even though she doesnt know how to BALANCE a bicycle.)

dear, i m glad tat u are taking ur class 3 seriously.
am reali PROUD of u..
i know u are doing it for me.
but rem, its knowledge and skills tat u bring to urself not me ok?

Speaking bt cars,
SO GIAN to get subaru can,
walked past the road show at Parkway parade..
Gimpse and took a short tour inside..
the sales person are so irriating.
They find my existance redunant lor..
sobsob..

hmm, so many DVD haven watched. and 1 is spoilt!!
muz get it back to JB to chg..

Looking forward to the redang trip end of the mth.
diving and diving agn..
now i pray that the resort has AIRCON and water heater (for my baby) and of cuz aircon is for me..
hee..
we aint gg for the nite dive which means we save 80 RM each..
Hmm , leaving on the 30th.. safely i hope,
and arriving back on the 2nd nite, safe and sound.
i am feeling so uneasy as my tanning oil is finished and i am hoping to get it tonite,
duno if i wanna go for training tom, stress!!!

Arhghg!!
hate the way the coach conduct the training sometimes.
MY body aint aching. i dun like the feeling..

** happy day** i got my blades.. FINALLY

But start of the mth onli, muz learn to save $$$$$$

diving in redang!

2007-02-22T08:24:00.000-08:00

I'M GOING DIVING IN REDANG!!!

ha. i'm so excited ... ... the experiences of swimming with fishes and my favourite - turtles, since tioman have been constantly been on my mind.

ba zhang u better dont let go of my hand again ... .... or not i will never, i say never speak to you again! ( warning )

oh ya, ah long says he will be our buddy .... three of us. so fun. we can finally take pic with his camera underwater!

i'm so looking forward to finishing my exam and then work.

i'm going to make my life more meaningful; lets be a little less lazy okay bebe? we'll take time out for each other and life's gona be beautiful the way i see it.

u know i rather be hurt than to let you know the truth ... ... but somehow i cant seem to hide anything from u

happy chinese new yr

2007-02-20T06:39:00.000-08:00

bad bad omen for the year!!
Ranging frm back flip to hitting ppl, i hate myself to get drunk.
couldnt rem shit !!!
sigh** PLAY a place where i never will wanna go back.
sigh!!!! my baby is so sweet, she took care of me and clean me up although she left me to slp on the floor but i was simply too dirty...
Chinese new yr is over as for now.
This weekend wil go over ah ma hse agn for my clothes and mahjong session.

Thanks for my love's dad gaf me the biggest ang pow of history.. hahahaha..
ok.. clarifiction time, she said, she asked me up to the bed,but i was too dirty to slp there...
well, had so much fun gg to jalan kayu on the third day of new yr , had mee hoon goreng and satay .. was very yummy the satay was so tender..

this tweety bird juz finish ransacking my cupboard and she is so greedy took so many tissue and put in HER BASKET!! box her time!!

hahaha..
miss deb on this CNY so much..

** i m the street fighter** before i get drunk and all, i muz get chged with my head band and all juz to be in the right suit for the right purpose!!

new start ... ...

2007-02-17T06:11:00.000-08:00

baby, thanks.

for the love you've shown.

i'm nothing without you and i want you to know.

i will settle for nothing just to be with you... i dont need good food nor materials in my life.

i need you, dumpling!

happy new year bebe... ... its was a gorgeous day to spend with you.

CNY plus V day

2007-02-16T11:43:00.000-08:00

Had so much fun for my post V day (15 feb)
went to east coast park to rent this stupid roller blade frm skatesport. Damn,it was freaking smelly and small.
initally i tot the side could fit me,who knows, aft blading outta the shop in less than 300m,
i realised that my toes is feeling cramp. Terrible feeling though.
Well, i hav to put myself thr the torture as i was too lazy to go back to chg another pair.
anihow i was planning to buy a pair of blade.stil couldnt decide which 1 to get.
A recreational one, or a freestyle.
The difference is plainly bt doing stunts though.
This beautiful pair caught my eyes at skatesports.
Reason why skateline doesnt have it cuz its cheaper to get at skateline as they are always having promotion.
retailing at 300++ then aft which they have promo on/off, hence their blades run out faster as compared to skateline.
i kinda dun wana wait til no more then i come and search though.

check almost all the store in skateline ,they said it was kinda a old model. hence no more carry in already.

But still , i felt myself with other alternative,
K2 has a nice pair, velocity 4.0 which is within my budget too. Blue looks good, but with mixture of white and grey. looks kinda cheapo .
Then agn,if ppl knows K2 , they are nv CHEAP!!!
hmm... still deciding... maybe leave myself with CNY period to think properly..
gonna take pictures of the skates once i purchase.
wahah...

Ohhh... Tweety bird cycle lazly along east coast that day..
she own me a packet of fries, as she was so sure tat east coast park is a "circle" where u skate all the way u will go back to its orginal spot..
i bet totally no on that..
she dun believe and she had to ask a passerby , who ma lu her la..
wahah...
she lost a packet of fries.
We had splendid time spent there.. with all the laughter and sweat ..
This birdy of mine, is always so lazy whenever i try to pull her by the back of her bicycle,she will purposely slow down, and complain she is tired, no strength, or the fact that "we're gg up the slope" which is so UNTRUE... we are actually on the straight road then..
Hmph!!!

After the "hectic" workout for HER,
we head down to PP to view the rollerblade (budget pair) ...
*Tiao* no more.. Left K2 and the expensive blades.
so we proceed to her fav spot "candy palace" oh my god.
she can practically live her own life in there.
I couldnt find her for tat 10 min once we stepped in..

Next, we proceed to the cable car station.
Damnit took us a detour to reach there..
Wat the hell , to think tat we are very fimilar with sentosa /h.front/ vivocity
but the fact we were lost trying to find the cable car station i think that i m quite kuku la.
it was so suspensing and breath-taking..
We both were very excited but at the same time scare while on the cable car.
by then it was 7past 8 already..
The sun has almost settled down..
still the sky was a little blue...
view was fantanstic,nevertheless, all these couldnt hide the fear inside us,
thinking of , WHAT IF , we fall from this height and ... it goes on...

Oh, finally we rch ALTIVO BAR,
i am so so glad my baby was very surprised that i bought her to such a nice place,
even though i din expect the menu to be so pathetic,but i do recommend to go there for a drink will be a wiser choice.
in the end i had onli CHIX WINGS.
wahah..
as usually photo taking is nv outta the topic..
heehee.
my baby Simply love the place .. bird eye view of the cable car, sentosa and the sky !!! juz like being on top of the hill..
which we actually are...
MOUNT faber is the hill we were on..

This event wil surely be engraved in my heart always and deeply...
i hope it does for u my love!!
The games we played wasnt boring, though i seems to be not interested , in fact i enjoyed it alot alot..
muacks..

Happy happy always with you

our compartibility

2007-02-16T11:40:00.000-08:00

Birth Data for jingwei:Birth Date and Time..... December 7, 1983 6:11 AMBirth Location............. Singapore, Singapore
Birth Data for daphne:Birth Date and Time..... November 24, 1984 12:00 AMBirth Location............. Singapore, Singapore

Your Sample Reading:

Emotions and Communication Between You

These aspects detail the quality of the emotional connection and basic comfort between the two of you and your ease or difficulty in communicating, talking with each other and simply understanding where each of you is coming from.
These aspects also describe how you reason together and resolve issues or problems.daphne's Mercury in Sagittarius, and jingwei's is in Capricorn:

Although you are attracted to each other, there are times when one of you will have great difficulty in figuring out where the other is coming from and what she (or he) is trying to tell you. Your styles of communication can be very different. The premises upon which you base your reasoning or the logic you use will often perplex your partner. Especially if you have to decide on projects or activities together, your differences can quickly become an issue between you. Talking things through slowly, step by step, will help each of you to understand how the other arrived at his (or her) opinion or conclusion. This will take patience but in the end will be worth it. What's more, by taking the time to really understand how your partner is thinking, you can not only learn something important about your partner but also get a different perspective yourself. You will also learn how your communication affects others, since your partner is probably not the only one who can't always understand what you're trying to say or figure out your logic. You've attracted this kind of relationship exactly for the purpose of fine tuning your thought processes and becoming more adept and flexible in the ways you have of communicating with others. This will be doubly useful if you are in a business that requires writing or regularly communicating with others.

Valentine day

2007-02-13T01:27:00.000-08:00

first of all, i am very glad to announce that my dearest sweetie pie has achieved her open water certification on 3rd FEB after almost 9mths by the stupid BIG BUBBLE CENTRE.
Why i say they are stupid?
simply becuz they sucks big time.. Held us down for almost 9mths for the damn licence.
Asked for more $$ so tat they can earn.
F them..

Well, i m very worried tat we couldnt get our licence.
but luckily we were persist on it.

aniwae, it was reali a enjoyable day.
i went back smiling to myself.
i proved myself right that watever i wanna achieve i will try my best.
at least i live without regrets.

Tml is Valentine's day!!
Wondering why everybody loves celebrating this special day when there is no PH on that day.
Frankly speaking i hate this day.
i feel that its juz another day.
if a couple has no quarrels or arguements,
everyday should be valentine!
Not only that, i lost my mum on this day and though i haven been very attached to her since young but there is this unsaid love and bond btwn us.
wat makes it worst is that,
the dad whom i dun even called him my DAD is a bloody sucker.
HE ACTUALLY had a woman way before my mum passed away..
he treated us like dirt, or rather SHIT after my mum was gone!! screw tat...

*well, i shant talk bt the unhappy things.*

Thanks baby once agn for going thr wateva we've gone thr juz to get my 1st credit card,
STANDARD CHARTERED ACCESS card.
i sub it to u as i've promise.
U reali meant alot to me.
i love you and i know u too.
Hope that our relationship will progress to another stage of life and we will try to be more understanding..

Been to the gym ydae for workout.
There was this terrible smelling WOMAN (with BO)
bet she is frm CHINA
kaoz,can pracitcally smell her frm like at least 5 steps away
how bad can that be.. Yucks. the tot of it makes me wanna vomit out my breakfast and light lunch.

My baby tweety my dragon boat race is on the 17-18 march at seletar come and visit me ok?
i will row the boat to ur "secret" compartment of your hrt..
Dead tired and brain dead
even though i got loads to type but not now.

I am glad to present myself a "open water" certification and frm my baby a G shock watch for V day.
Thanks loads once agn..

we shall spend our time wisely the next two days ok?
muacks

cheeks cheeks cheeks

2007-02-05T19:25:00.000-08:00

your words are so harsh to me; u never knew how much u hurt me.

images of you chasing me away and yelling and hurtful words are a torture to remember thus i'm trying hard to forget.

cheeks, i'm taking in all not because i'm afraid to let go, but because i know i have so much more to give.

you're going through a rough time and i know... ...
i'm always there for you to hold on to, dont turn me away.
never know when my *handiplasted* heart will just harden and i'll wave my white flag.

everything's sweet and i hope u smile more.

*i want a skinnier face; afro hair; and bigger smile*

lotsofmemorieswillnotbeforgotton

2007-01-30T14:27:00.000-08:00

adapt and live ur dreams..
Love and not to be loved.
I longed to be loved, and i know tat i found tat in you!!!
sometimes things juz get outtat hand.
I know tat i will always cherish u and i know tat the day i made u mine is the day tat i will nv forget its when heaven have showered me with your tender love and kindness.
I have grown to understand that its not abt me and myself.Sometimes juz simply hate the feeling of being self-centred.
nevertheless, i neglected certain stuff.
I worried too much, u WORRIED More than tat i could ever imagined.
Love is a profound which nobody could understand.
Or m i juz blabbering shit?

sigh** why is it so hard to understand myself?
life hit me the hardest two yrs back.
been at the stagnant edge lately,but i enjoyed that feeling.
Would anybody agree that life will have its ups and downs that no one could found more enjoyment than sufferings?
its a wild world out there.
Learning by the hard way is always my way of learning...
could i ever find another alternative way to learn instead?

my heart has been stabbed by a million needles and bleeding profusely.
my mind is running ard like a lost child abandon off the streets.
i hate to be feeling the way i m rite now.

i wished you could be happier, i hate to see u cry,
i cant bear to let u go but i duno wat is it tat u wan or need?
i need to know ...

love me or hate me , choice is yours.
I wanna drown in the sorrows like i have never b4 and swim to the deepest sea to find myself a place which i can confide in.

baby, i dun ever wanna see u not eating nor crying...
i meant it frm the bottom of my heart.
I love u and that is why i care for u ..
Take care of ur health..

advanced V day gift

2007-01-26T06:18:00.000-08:00

THANKS BABY!!!
i m so glad my baby got me my G shock watch.
Advanced V day gift.
Thanks.. i love it loads.
i know also how much u dote me..

no money nothing .. i mean nth at all can measure my love for u..

Tml robinson voucher.. we are coming dear..

ending of january 2007

2007-01-21T08:25:00.000-08:00

well, times flies...
got my lappy on 10 jan, shit.. got a defect piece,with manufacturing prbl.
aniwae, the usb port was made too high,so was kinda hard to input the usb lor.

tweety is slpy soundly.
lately i m quite stressed up,not sure the reason why.
probably too tired. has been guilty of giving attitude to my baby.
I gotto admit i do love to spend $$ but now i m gonna save up my salary for my subaru WRX coming along the way.
hahahah.. dreaming ar!!! !!

well, i reali like the G shock but i think tat i can spend the $$ on beta things though.
CNY is coming along agn, i feel tat its juz another year,nv reali looked forward to cny since 2 years back.. was a devasting moment.
My precious advice is to every single soul out there, treasure wat u have before its gone!!

I gotto work tom, so tired.
starting frm next mth i will hab dragon boat trg twice a week at kallang,hurhur.
but gd training though.
felt damn bad to hav missed out on two weeks of trg.
last sat was becuz i was merely too tired.
now i simply cant slp!!
gosh!!

dear, u knw i love u, and u are the reason why my hrt is stil pounding ..
i have to confess u been very torlerate towards me these few days,
i appreciate and love u very much.
sometimes my way of caring for u might not be wat u expect,but rem this always,
learn to love the change, n dun change ur love for me.
cuz i learn to love u like the way u change as time passes by!!

maucks..

looking for our next Valentine day!!

i'm spoiled by you

2007-01-05T01:59:00.001-08:00

i'm spoiled by you baby...

no no, i'm no spoiled brat

i'm like a child! thats what you said.
yeah i am when i am with you.

you make me giggle like a child when i first met you, remember?

i'm spoiled by you

2007-01-05T01:59:00.000-08:00

i'm spoiled by you baby...

no no, i'm no spoiled brat

i a like a child! thats what you said.
yeah i am when i am with you.

you make me giggle like a child when i first met you, remember?

goodbye 2006 welcome 2007

2007-01-02T06:26:00.000-08:00

news Headline.
Ending off with 2006 bombing at bangkok. very near the place wher my hotel was previously at.Heehee bt 4 streets away. Soi 18 was my hotel but the bombing took place at 22.
WELL, next i heard that bombing occur at Spain too.At the airport.

NEXT news will concern Smokers.**so non-smokers and read forward** heehee.
HK set on ban on public areas starting frm 1.1.07
So irritating la.
WEll, i planning with my tweety to go HK in probably feb or april though.
Along with mints and mag, or maybe nic and ahpek.
Heehee.
i feel tat holidaying should be more the better.

30.12.06

A stupid yet enjoyable day.
Why stupid, Cuz i sprain my DAmn Ankle at Cafe iguana.
Nice place but no longer.
Cuz the floor is kind of uneven la.
Thanks** to the layout of the irritating cafe.
SWELL like a HUGE POTATO can.
Arhghg...
its been the 3rd day and its stil like a tomato size ..
painful and rashes is developing.
bet it becuz of the oilment i use to rub.
its reali killing me even when i rotate my ankle.

On this special day,its also .....
Baby dragon and baby tweety's virgin nite to MOS ..

Bewildered by the crowd in R&B room as well as feeling so lost when we step in ..
Saw that Femme Quest Lynn outside **on the Road** with her partner.
Kaoz. she was wearing a skirt.i mean a short 1 though.
madness rite?Her partner looks drunk though.
No worries we saw ppl shouting like they were bt to get into a fight.
And apparently one of our frens saw the same grp of ppl who were cursing and swearing (one of which) has a bleeding head.
well, The R&B area was cool though.its like a "cage" and the toliet can actually connect thr another area.

we proceed to MS to eat ba ku teh.
tat was not our inital intention. we plan to switch venue since MOS is closed b4 5 am
But they were closed too.maybe cuz they are preparing for a EARLI nite off so as to chiong for the big day 31.12.06
Hmm.. aft our ba ku teh, we bought frm 711, 4 btls of heink .. drink and drank thr the morning.
Wah..
I m so surprised, i couldnt even imagine when was the last time i stay awake outside, apart frm wkg, til DAWN.. and drinking as well.
Nice experience.
Nic and mag, and Fabian, we were like saying BT tat *porkchop* she is so Irritating.
Unreasonable.
Finally my baby tweety could understand how despicable she is ..

All i can say is i've pick up a caring and loving gf and i will never let her go..

heehee..
baby, i hope u know how i felt for you.
lastly would like to wish u a happy 1 and half yr anniversary.
its been a great pleasure to be able to spend thr ups and downs with u by my side.
I also love the fact that you always been talking to me even though i m aslp(cuz tired aft wkg the whole day)
and also pinching my nose trying to make it sharper.
I love tat too.

nobody eats the way u do.. i love looking at you eat.
cuz by looking at you eat, i m Full liaoz.
hahaha.

Chocolate girl in 2006 and 2007 .. you will be loved more each passing yr.

brandnewyear&abrandnewstart

2006-12-27T05:45:00.000-08:00

its been a while since i'be last had a proper meal with my dear.
aniwae,i had maggie noodles for dinner.
x'mas i spent it at hm, how miserable.
We din wanna go aniwher cuz its so crowded.
Cant even fight for your own breathing space + its been raining cats and dogs.
Life has been under the continous rain..
The rain has nv stop for more than 24 hrs.
well, its been cooling but the clothing will nv dry...

need to save $$... i mean alot..
planning for a degree.either biz (finance) or engineering.
MDIS or APMI.
**stragety planning**
wahhaha...

After 12 i should be getting my pay.
will be getting my laptop in no time.
sigh..
worst of all, vista is gg to be launched,and i aint gonna wait
am i being quite stupid??
Blurzz***
Make do with window vista first lor.

**happy new year in advance, and belated merry x'mas"
to myself and my birdy..

i love u,ta jat ..

Hopefully in the coming yr(2007), i will soon have a new yr resolution..
This thurs gonna go for KTV and then fri morn stil gotto go mircon for interview..
heard tat they are giving 2 mth bonus..
hehee.

finding a beta prospect for the new yr ..
Govt sucks always increasing the tax. hopefully they will drop the idea..

Shit.. i nearly forgotton. today is mints grandma's wake and apparently i din go..
damn..
needa gif her a sms liaoz.
ciao.

shall update next yr then..

I want to see the sunrise with my darling.

i miss u.

2006-12-25T06:59:00.001-08:00

" to have but not to hold " ... ...

i wanna kiss your face like i always do each morning but i didnt.
for whatever our conversation had lasted the night before still lingers in my head.
" maybe i still love you ", "maybe i'm waiting for something bigger to happen"

"maybe"

and yes, maybe i still wish for a response " its becuase i love you" ... maybe i no longer needed this from u anymore.

Mix feeling

2006-12-12T10:43:00.000-08:00

Received a call at 2am,
while the line was busy.
picked up the call,its was some1 whom i dun feel like talking to.
but feeling obliged.
felt bad,let my collegues to be doing the job.
Hmph** Sigh** (blowing air lik your little dragon)
anger is wat i felt within.

The conversation started quite reprimanding.
But well,i felt that i would juz said watever i felt within.
Cuz the arguement all started within of a person whom is ergostic,prideful,
and he is not ready for a seperation with his gf.
sigh** but why on the earth .. he is getting everybody involved?
wat he is trying to show??
Makes my blood boil only..

Awaitin for my laptop...
a long long wait though,
but i will be able to withstand the time test.
i hope ur sister will not be too harsh on u if she were to confront u regarding the above matter.

well,like i always say: "If an apologise does helps,then i would kill u, and apologise?will you forgive me?"
Same logic applies.
Hopefully i will leave myself to learn to think before acting..

** now is the best news of all time**
The dragon's wife has actually passed her fatal ADVANCE THEROY EXAM on 12 DEC.
my bestest birthday gift for the year.
hahahah...
all the best for your TP next.
i am awfully glad to tell u tat i m grining frm left to right.
its like a mission being accomplised.
not entirely, but half done though.
WEll, thanks, for everything you have done.
Even if at the end of the day, the dragon might not hav the wife's presence when she passed her TP, but i still wish u the best and drive carefully ok?

Do not always ask me how much ilove u.
cuz i reali love the dragoness so much..
muaks.

its the end of the year

2006-11-29T21:30:00.000-08:00

counting down to the numbers of hours before reaching the last month of the year.
Guess u muz be thinking i gt nothing beta to do.
This tweety bird, once agn, proclaimed she has lost her ezlink card.
With her bus concession in it. Replacement of card cost 23bucks.
with a yr she can misplaced 2times.
means she has contributed to the smrt 56 bucks in additional of watever she been contributing to them.
how generous.
On top of it, within 3mths, she clocked $400++ of talktime crediting to starhub.
Of which she had onli paid up 1/3.

Well, i have been trying to ask her to be very careful with her $$.
Outside market, its is not very easy to earn $$ ok?
muz exchg time and hardship for $$..

Hmm,my wish is to be able to relax and enjoy myself for the fact that i m getting older turning 23 earli next mth.
WELL, been thr alot to come to this.
i swore i will visit the hosp next yr to extract out the extra piece of metal inside my arm.
useless. Handicap.
Well, lets talk bt the happy thing.
Managed to talk to my birdy aft she knock off.
She is so funny with her face .. and her eating habits.
had 3 pieces of chixs from LJS (1 of it is complimentary frm me)
and when she comes back with a curry puff n spring roll frm Old Chang Kee,
she said it was for me.
No long later,she claimed tat she is hungry.
As soon as i said i m not hungry, her mouth reach out for the snacks.
Sigh**
tat snacks din fill her stomach.
its juz merely serve as a appeittiser for her.
Next, she told me she is gg downstairs to buy maggie.
*cuz i lied to her tat my sis ate her laksa maggie**
somewhere in btwn, she ask me to request for her to stay at my place so tat she can dun need to go hm.
** so THICK skinned Rite?**
yes and so i did ..
As requested.
she was overjoyed.
SHE dropped her strawberry bag frm GUESS (apparently)
and started eating agn.. Cooking her maggie mee, 2 packets summore.

she Refused to let me go to slp.(time checked 12am)
i was very tired. i need to go wk at 530 lor,
she actually talk cock n sing song along with me.
Speaking bt deb.
I mentioned that she has wings to protect louey n dap.
Big wings with angel crown circling on the top of her head
hahaha.. how noble.

i want ... desperately want a laptop. but i can control i will get the laptop when vista is launch.
i m looking at dv 2121. heehee.
HP laptop,staff purchase at $1999
ge force graphic card.
ok..
maybe a aldo shoe.
And plus a roller blade.
a full set of dumb bells and barbell, with weights.
guess that's bt all on my wish list santa.
Thanks. pls deliver it at ur convenience.
heheheee.
opps , i forgot,
i need a pair of slippers (nice one) frm reef too.

No more clothes nor jeans til aft new yr.
God damn lots at my hse haven had a chance to wear it.
DUE TO MY STUPID JOB.

**why u always love my nose?

Make a wish upon the stars

2006-11-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

fri after work, duno why i am so energised ...
@ aprox 1145pm, at sunrise garden while waiting to be the usual "spiderman",
i actually chanced upon a SHOOTING STARS.
actually it wasnt the first time i saw it,
but duno why i feel totally amazed by it.
couldn't believe my own eyes.

I scream on the other side of the phone.
WQ , i think i juz saw a shooting star.. but i aint sure.
Well, i made a wish to have more wishes.
and then i started uttering those wishes of mine.
back to the topic, wq is on the line asking me to go "CUBE"
aint reali interested.
so i pushed it off.

i have been feeling so tired lately..
i guess i know the reason why , duhz**
tat feeling sux
has been standing at work while watching others do the job,
i FAll aslp,
While standing,can?
its so ridiculous la..

anihow i scrap thr last week with cold sweat.
last nite, the ducky had forced her way thr to jig out the cotton bud struck inside my ears for "duno how many years"
but she FAILED.
so painful i could feel like my heart beat would stop.
cease my life.

kaoz...
well, next week will be a busy week agn..
dap birthday. and all..
arhghg**

hopefully everything turns out well.
what is love?
i wanna make big bucks... this is all i care rite now at this very moment of time.

** reali Wished for a laptop**
arhghg..

sleepy block

2006-11-16T00:23:00.000-08:00

i have been feeling so slpy lately at wk..
was feeling shitty ydae, almost fainted..
ON THE TRAIN!!
breaking into cold sweat.

Its not the start of a new beginning.
its not the end..
wondering wat i m feeling rite now?
wished i could juz pour out wateva tat i feel for u,
yes,
i shed tears for u silently
U dun seems to see it so often,simply becuz
I dun wan u to see the part of me which is already weaken..
yet on the other hand, my heart is broken too..
Not jus u !!

seriously needing the companionship and needing a partner is juz a thin line away.
This is how i feel..
love can be so hard to define,
**its not that i m trying to be cheam here, or complicated.**

well, maybe i m used to being a loner frm the start.
To start off with, i have always been the 1 being ditched.
hence i m the 1 feeling hurt at the end of the day..

my wish for the burger cum tweety bird cum vain pot here,
is tat
-she will be more wise in every single way, she could,
-she could put on more weight everywhere.
- study hard for her upcoming semster
.................
and soon she is coming into the cruel society to work,
not realising how cunning human nature are to get things their way.

hmm, i m a very negative person i tot to myself,
who gives a damn.. !!
so long as i do live my life to my own philsophy i think its all it matters.

Sorry,babe,
i cant put the incident down, but i know u have been nice and good,caring and sweet to me..
well, i might have commit some mistakes along the way too ..
let's gif us sometime to ourself and dun u think the current situation we are in now,
is preferable enjoyable too..

1) i would like to make a trip to east coast or rather parkway to take a peek at the inline skate tat i plan to purchase.
2) maybe a laptop, be it second hand 1 also can..

..... To be continued !!

missin' you

2006-11-06T22:47:00.000-08:00

i miss u, i do.

so badly, every minute, every second is a torture.

slipping through my fingers

2006-10-06T00:09:00.000-07:00

i've forgotten.
forgotten how hard i cried that dreadful day.
forgotten how many nights my pillow was drenched.
forgotten how badly i needed u.
forgotten how much i love u.
forgotten how much i wanted u.
forgotten.

sleepless nights lately, for a month now.
the calm water of the pool and the darkness of the sky seemed to have allowed me to think.
the first place we talked; the place i sought comfort

have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry?
have you ever found the one you give your heart to; only to find the one wont give his heart to you
all u can is wait for the day they will care;

we used to be able to talk about our agruements.
now even if i use my softest tone and calmest voice to try to talk to you about our our problems, you wont listen. maybe its just you.
you think that its nothing and i'm trying to start a quarrel.

no, its "talking" about us.
if i tell u that it will bother me if we didnt talk it through, will u care?
its okay now.
i wont anymore; i try not to anymore.
you wanted it this way; i'll give it to you.
you rather not talk about anything; i wont.
but its because of the love i have for you that i am willingly to talk about it, its a much easier way out by keeping mum.

it has gotten to a point that i am lettin' go... ... this time round, i can feel it... ...

will u stand by me?

2006-10-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

i miss the old times when i could just be so sure of our relationship... ... so sure because you gave all.

i'm still sure now but this time, its due to me. i know i cant live without you by my side.

i could still feel my stomach churning when i hold your hands that night. i could still remember how badly i wanted you then, and i know how badly i want you now.

Thr the ups and downs.

2006-09-24T12:34:00.000-07:00

I know that this could be the hardest part of our Relationship.
But we muz sometimes stop the pace tat we are using taking.
Think and reconsider.
Wher things gone wrong?
i maybe unreasonable at times.
i maybe crop up with work.
maybe i do not know how to handle.

Cherish the moment.
I duno when i will lose u,
yes, u may think that i have low self esteem,
but tat is me.....

tired and drunk this whole weekend has been for me.
From HRC to DBL O and more...
hmm.. i accidentally spill a few drips of water onto a lady from the other zone.
i actually drop into her butt crack there. i feel so bad..

sigh**
its the start of another week.
hopefully a good one to kick off.
Hmm, a rs is suppose to make u happy, enjoyable
but definately not miserable.
This is wat i always tell myself..

Do think of me as often like how i always think of u ...
Pay wil be released in 3 days time.
Let us hope that nothing will crop up in the midst.

I still wanna go rochester with you..
let us make a time and go there tog n chill.
Love my dippy always..

Pls do allow me "in"
no one has ever loved me like the way u did.
Thanks for everything tat u have ever given me
you are like the bread and i m the ham.
We are meant to be

Jing wei

i'm a sensitive bitch

2006-07-25T18:27:00.000-07:00

Limped to work today. Bad start.

Got to work real late. Bad Bad start.

Got to see the real state of my pimples, courtesy of the office white lights, bad bad bad start.

hmmmmm hmmmmm ...

Theres something i think that i ought to do about myself.

I should raise my standards and bars to higher heights.

*clap everyone, applauded me for making that statement! *

Sad to tell everyone that i'm no longer going to be that somebody whom u can push around! watch out you people who stepped on me! Cause Daphne Darling is going to crush your heads with her 9-inch high heels!! Watch out ( pss: i can't walk with heels)

why am i feeling this way?

2006-07-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

Guess what?
i went for the interview at fly entertainment, walking streets to find it, and i got the job. Read again: I"VE GOT THE JOB. After all the sweating and panting and praying that the next house will be fly (i couldn't find the place!, i actually gotten the position of : "an intern with fly entertainment, two queens party management".

hmmmmm, an internship for me. funny i guess cause i am the sort of person who wont go against money.

A comparison: starhub $7/hr, relaxed environment and all the free beverages for me and a miserable $500 from fly entertainment.

Truth is that there isnt much to compare when it comes to money matters.

Bebe, i'm looking ahead of time, for me, for you, for us.
I do want a future with you, working hard towards it is just what i am doing.

Put it upfront: I AM JUST USING THE EXPERIENCE I WILL GET WITH FLY ENTERTAINMENT TO GET ME A GREAT JOB NEXT TIME

I know your stand and your point of view, but have you tried to undersatnd mine?
No one else ought to know me better than you by now, and if you are worrying about the partying, please baby please, have the trust in me. I'm still the same me.

I never do once do anything that will ruin this relationship and i never plan to.
Whatever we have is too precious to let go for anyone, anything. So trust me if i am giving you my word now; should you feel that this job is not for me, i'll give it all up.

for the quarrels will just surface if u dont trust me from the start.

am i asking for pity?

2006-07-19T19:22:00.000-07:00

i started asking myself am i asking for pity? am i de-grading myself til i, myself feels like i am asking for sympathy? somehow i felt that way when i had a conversation with fel.

*sigh* when did things become so complicated?

i'm lazy, i love to drag ... ... i guess i tried to stretch the limit u guys gave me. sorry

hate myself right now.

insanity

2006-07-17T18:28:00.000-07:00

i'm insane... smoked by the stench of your stale, menthol mixed, nasi lemak breathe last night.

wanted to rest on your ever mighty shoulders, but could only keep a distance.

feel so distance ... ...

"Packages"

2006-07-16T18:07:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry.

sorry for being violent * not really, u hit me real bad, the word is "box"*, i'm just being protective.

no no, dont bring anyone into the picture. its just me. cause i came to realize long time back that if i dont protect myself, no one will.

sorry for "clumping" my hand hard on your face, didnt mean it, if you trust me. but remember i was holding your hands and laughing while doing that?

i starting thinking real hard last night while sitting there alone, real hard about what went wrong, but guess what, my mind's blank. and with the music in the background playing some chinese love songs, all my emotions just came "rolling" amd flowing out of no where till i break down and cry.
crying for the very reason:" why did our relationship turn out to be like this? " all the quarrels is uncalled for, both you and me knew.

trust me, my tears were not for any pity from you. the last thing i want is for you to see me cry. if you know me, i always turn away from you should i tear.

hmmmm, all the flipping and flopping on bed last night did me some good; the quarrels are needed to be there to make me stronger, make you stronger, make both of us stronger.

"packages" that comes along in a relationship probably are the fights, quarrels, and then the make-up sessions that occurs each passing day.

i love you one day, and i might, just might hate you another day. its normal honey. its damn normal.

no one's here

2006-07-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

no one's here yet .. ermmmm, i mean my two gang-mates - cutie and latie ... late late late.

maybe will be forgiven given that thers a morning shower.

2006-07-12T23:07:00.001-07:00

Holy pants i'm ill. Ill - *my dictionary - down with anything that makes me unable to eat*

been making horrible, dreadful trips to the washroom... ... horrible ones that start with the sound of *plat plat plat*, then with me holding on to the toilet paper holder and cringing out the last bit of whatever left in my poor anus.

sessions of "bulimia" too, vomitting into the bowl. my mind was going off "the hash-brown my dumpling loved!!!, the sultanas from delifrance... gosh. wish i could 'fish the hash-brown out for my dumpling... ( i know you wanted another just now )

been lookng forward to the party tonight, not so for the party itself. you know i dont like to dance, you know i'm not a drinker nor alcoholic.

but remember the last time we party we had so much fun that you literally have to drag me off the dance floor and yell into my ear "we're going home! work work work, remember?!? " In fact i did a calculation:

minus the times we had quarrels due to insignificant people * milton, mel, bigentch, and the list goes on... *

i summate that all our nights out were * drum roll * paradisiac. perrrr- fectttttt .

its bewildering how we could enjoy each other's company. *gee** hint- thumper; not that night before you know me if u guessed wrongly*

loved it. loved each hug u gave me.

Zouk!! Cheeky and Tweety is coming tonight!!

fuck you

2006-07-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

the reason is you ... ...

2006-07-09T20:32:00.000-07:00

the reason behind me feeling i have all that i need is you

the reason behind me feeling so gorgeous is you

the reason behind me feeling so damn high is you

the reason behind each and every breathe i take now is you

i must have been so tired when my sister told me she thought i died.

fel: " yo *poking me* yo yo wake up "

* no response *

fel: " yo * shaking me * yo yo zorro calling you "

* no response *

fel: " hey!!! yooo hoooo !!! "

ducky: " huh " * open her precious eyes * why? "

fel: " momo ask you to wash your dishes, but i did it for you. "

ducky: "thanks."

fel: " i thought you died, had such a hard time waking you up. "

ducky: " really? "

hmmmm, i'm a light sleeper since young.

my dumpling, i miss u. * smile *

You tried to tolerate my "garlic infected small, beautiful mouth" til you couldnt anymore. Thanks dumpling.

taking a break ... ...

2006-07-02T22:59:00.000-07:00

i'm drained.
i live my life for you; you took it away with words only i could imagine.
"love like you have never been hurt before"; guess i should've known.
words like "i love you" and "miss u" used to flow from me to you; but i'm holding back now, for i'm afraid, truely afraid.

fairies came to me last night, wings sweeping across my face... ...

2006-06-29T23:36:00.000-07:00

i think i am falling ill, or maybe i'm just abate, or maybe its just that i'm dilatory.
seriously, i loved that about me.

my memory's failing me. to think that i could not even remember issues that happened before the break of dawn. the reasons behind my tearing and insane behaviour last night was sunk deep down in my heart, so immersed they were that when i seek to recall, my heart's disfigured.

i'm battered and miffed.

*the moment i close my eyes, however tight i struggle to close them, i still see you.

its only then i realize you exist right in there, right in my heart.

rooted are you, so rooted are you in my soul, whereby each words spoken could entwine me.

its only then i realize how much you matter to me.

perhaps i'm emotional. and i know emotional and pathetic are words hard to seperate.

i'm breaking down because of you.

i do need words of reassurance from you.

cause only you can turn my frown into a smile. *

Started my day with puffy eyes. darn.

my darling sister lended me her sunnies! guess she still cares. but i started to doubt it when she asked for it back.

holy pants, did so many wrong entries today. unforgivable but forgiven.

held my head low for the rest of the evening. darn it.

i wish stuff like this not to crop up once again.

wish my nites are filled with marshmellow filled chocolates, topped with rainbow spinkles just so i could sleep smiling

2006-06-29T00:28:00.000-07:00

been pondering over certain issues lately. issues that used not to once crossed my mind.

i've grew, i guessed.

i'm still me. the same me whom u knew. just certain issues casued me to changed a little towards how i react towards situations.

i could fill a thousand pages of letters filled with my emotions for u but u might not understand.

i love you ... ... and i still believe i do.

dont want any stress from me to you.

i'll figure my own way out, all smiles.

Sweet luxury of having a hot cuppa of milo while typing this entry. sweet sweet luxury.