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RElive the moments ..

I had my tattoo done aft 3 years. since not enough.. i want more tattoo...ss..

Hurts is all i feel deep inside..
all i wish for is to CRY OUT loud.

Thnx for making the trip so that i could see u, i know My dear "ham baobao" is tired ..

I wished for the best for u, to be happy..
Always rem, i was not there for u when we are tog.. but now its diff

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 4:09 PM .

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marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 3:19 AM .

well ,i wanna go get my tattoo done in phuket. would u pls company me there?
u got me thinking of u every moment of my life.
its very torturing.

i hope u will juz grant me one wish to company me get the inking done.
its been a long time since i have tattoo.
forgot wat is called pain.
ultimately the most painful part is the pain in the hrt which couldnt be healed.

i went to sunrise alone ydae.i saw ur unit , was juz like how it used to be.
but the residents inside hav changed.
juz like ur hrt..

well, i reali will die to liver failure soon.
i m finishing my 3rd btl of hard liquor in the shortest time ever ...
now gg to hunt down ppl to get another btl of chivas back for me.
Well, New year Eve ...
i took NR bus hm, aft slacking around.
Even the route from the NR bus stop to my house seems different.

i guess in life, the only thing tat is constant is CHANGE!!
i yearn for u day and nite.
if there is only one thing i could do b4 i die, i will wan ur love not to ever die.

In 2009 all i see and feel is the emptiness and the darkness , feels like living in a cave!!

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 8:23 PM .

how long it takes for me not to cry ani more,??
Not now, cuz i still drink till i put on weight, till i dun care how i look.
i cried , so hard so bad. i tried to break away, its so hard it seems harder than lifing a 100 kg weight of bar bell...
i m all so tired so tat i could slp well, wouldnt juz wake up in the middle of the nite crying or thinking y i m alone.
" nobody said it was easy"
its such a shame for us to part like this !!

hurts me more than anithing else, repeating the scene tat very nite. " the last time i saw u"
i will always keep in mind, so tat i will b strong.
take care, dun ever turn back!!

cuz i m moving on ..........
least trying......
well, if u wan i could change the account under ur email if u want!
this blod is urs i cant be selfish!!
merry xmas, and i know u are happy.
i wished , dreamt that we could spend every festive tog,

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 6:54 AM .

But u dun post. Updating u bt my life? I m so sick of waking up everyday at 12plus in the afternoon.
day in and out, i dreamt of u, twice two days. What the hell.
got nth beta to do? i hav been slping till my body aches.
Life is so much surprises if only u let her in...
If letting a person into ur life is so easy then i wouldnt be where i m ..

i m almost done with all my dvds. Maybe in another 2 days.
i have always been busy dvds n nv finish watching it. now i did.
She has left me probably when she found someone to rely on,
she has left , so i muz move it on, y u love some one who has found love in another?
I have to go.........................................................
i m tired, x'mas, new year day,
enouf of dreams cuz they never come true.....

Try to accept and maybe this is beta....
well, these 5 days of holidays seems so nice yet long, I KNOW U ARE LIKE A FORBIDDEN fruit now. ..

I wondered if every scene reminds u of us? cuz it does for my case

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 9:19 PM .

Was a tough time trying to get thr my days n nights w/out duckie.
My Bdae was a terrible time, slowly i knew i had to pick myself up.
Learning is nv easy. BUt i have to try...
Starting read book to past time, found the pleasure of reading.
killed 3 dvds within 1 afternoon.
hand is casted, cant gym, cant attend trg. Was very torturous.
Drinking and tearing became part of me.

i recalled the times wher i had duckie to help me out with everything when i was on cast last year for i took out my metal plate, nw i m left alone, so different to get get things done. cant shower, cant even put spread my bread with peanut butter.
day in day out, life seems very dull w.out u, nothing i would look forward to.
the look of u, i wished to retain more, but its seems to fade away.

i have nv Stop thinking of u, i looked at the camera, i think of u, the times we had at st james, i wish time would freezed back then . .. aft i send u to her place, i went mad. u duno.'
]i cry cried cry cried so bad, wishing tat u were back.
i was very like super big baby in front of my collegues , team mates ...
i have lost the most impt thing in my life, i could have least expected,
i m sorry for the hurt i put u thr, i know u could nv ever, wanna this rs back..

This lifetime, u and i , may have been the best couple yet, we could have lasted,
i Ruin the fate we both had....
my heart is crushed big time,
i know i goto pull thr, life still goes on..
my door will always open for u,
rem , couple who reali loves, dun bear grudges.. its nv easy to be in a rs, especially one which lasted 3 years , day n nite unseperatable. ..

i m learning to stand on my 2 feets. by gifing u ur space, i believe i m doing u good.
BUT I REALI HATE ppl who are so irritating tat have to be fetch to the airport, so fake, u , maybe fancy ppl wich has clas 3 or owns a car, i have none/
i ADMIT DEFEAT!! i m a loser like wat ur gf said

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 3:27 AM .

My boss reprimanded me for the 3rd time in the week.
He said why i look so dazed half the time. Did i juz came back from a holiday or wat?he asked.
He questioned if i had ani prblems at hm, i duno wat to answer him.
i merely juz smile.

** well, i cried pratically everynite to slp.**
i slpt for 5hours plus last nite, but woke up thrice to check my fone.
I wondered wat she is doing, if she does misses me.
til now, no msg.

Wonderin if i should say tat " u see ur collegeaus like every day,
now tat u r on leave , u still mit them up almost everyday."
isnt tat quite boring.
Yes, i think i want u give me some time to tell u that i reali reali want this.
I know u love me, but that is not enouf. i drilled it in my head.

U juz sms me as i was typing this entry.
I reali cant slp everynite. I honestly need some pills to help me out.

I duno if u missed me?cuz i miss u at work.
Miss all the morn call i gaf u so tat u can wake up for work.

Actually i din wanna intrude into ur time with who ever u want.
But i reali wanna hav a proper dinner with u n spend sometime tog, like how we did ydae shopping at taka.

sigh** ur leave will soon be over. And i guess u have also block me on msn , cuz i dun see u online.
these 3 year was a breeze in the rs. I know i broke everything single handedly ..
i m sorry. I m willing to do watever it takes to have the chance to treat u beta than b4.
words are juz words.
my action will tell u..

I truly hope u can company me to genting on my bdae.
Reali Do.
leaving on friday 5 dec 11pm if not mistaken.

I hope u still gif me and us a fair chance.

ydae was i was running at the track at kallang. i tot we could settle down,
get married and be tog forever.
i m oreadi 25. If i propose will u agree? or do u take it as i m kidding?

well, will u believe?
or m i rushing u?

marshmellow choc choc told you a secret at 5:24 PM .